Wordless Wednesday: What I'm THANKFUL for these days

Wordless Wednesday (A day late) : You Better Not Pout, You Better Not Cry

Halloween AND "THINGS" :)

Our Family At Daycare
Jacob lovin is office job!

Jacob as THING 2

Jacob and Steph (thier fav girl at Daycare)

Me, My Mom, the boys

Gio as Thing 1

Gio giggles

Gio and Steph <3>
Grandma takes us trick or treating :)

*SHY*

WORKIN'

In the Parade

My Favorite "THINGS" :)

Since I have no idea how to put Pics on the bottom of my posts (Yep, Blogger of the Year Awards abound over here in the Corner..LOL ) I will write and and know that you'll read this AFTER you see the pics.

In true Kir fashion and because anyone who knows me knows that I have NO Love for Halloween, I made a command decision that THING 1 and ThING 2 would be a PERFECT outfit for the twins. It was easy (I had the shirts made on our Cape May Trip on the boardwalk in Wildwood)....there were no masks or face paint and they did let me color their hair BLUE. :)

We brought them to work On Friday and everyone here just loved that. They were very shy at first and very clingy (new phase of not eating and being in a "Mama" mode lately) but finally they got their groove on and made lots of friends.

then we left early and went to Daycare for the Halloween Parade..where they were sooo cute and even someone (like me) who doesn't even like the Holiday was overcome with the cuteness of the marching Ladybugs, Buzz Lightyears, Bumble Bees and Monkeys. :)

we proceeded home to get ready for Halloweening..I decided that this year they were still too young to actual go trick or treating, so we let them stay dressed and hand out candy..WOW, did they have fun. They loved "helping" and outside of some scary masks they enjoyed themselves, ate a lot of candy and made themselves nice and tired. :)

hope your Halloweens were good. I've seen lots of your pictures and your kids were adorable.

Now, Thanksgiving and Christmas are right around the corner. Wow, where did 2009 go?

Wordless Wednesday * You Make Me Laugh*

Let's Go to Florida :)

Jacob in his vest
Jacob running to the water

BIG SMILE Jacob

Jacob

GIO :)

John on Clearwater Pier

Boys in the Water

Gio giving us the devlish Smile :)

Gio giggles

Mommy and the Pirate

That's MINE !!!!!

Walking to the pool

My Beautiful Boys

2 weeks ago, we spent a week in a VERY VERY HOT Florida. We were near Tampa and Clearwater in a town called Indian Shores. Even the locals were saying things like "I've never seen it this HOT" *um, you live in Florida* and "Can't wait for this Heat Wave to break". It was very very hot and very very humid, but better than rain and the "SNOW" we had in Philly/New York area and came back to. BRRRRR. The plane rides weren't horrible , but let's just say I am glad that we haven't decided to go back to Aruba yet, 5 hours and 2 toddlers..well there is just NOT enough Xanax for that ride. Yet.

We had a great condo this time, on the first floor (WHOOOHOO) with a patio (that I got to sit on a little when the babes would take an afternoon nap ) it was a two bedroom. We rented cribs, that the boys never slept in because they got comfortable on the guest bed and slept there together all week. It was comfortable and beautiful and a rest we really needed in a lot of ways.

We had fun in the pool, slept in a little every day. Took naps, took walks, ate lots of bad stuff for us and generally had a good time. Gio did have a fever for about 4 days of our trip but then 2 teeth popped out and he broke out with the Roseola rash (that explains the fevers) and the end of the week was a little better with him.

We are already thinking about our trip next year. We like that the boys are traveling and it's teaching us a lot about what to pack, what's necessary and not...and it's getting them used to flying. All good things.

Other than that, things are the same. Work is crazy...life is crazy. The boys are just so much lately. They were just babbling 2 weeks ago and now they are actually saying lots of words, not sentences yet, but they are definately trying to get a point across and they are sooooo cute. They say MAMA a lot now and Da-dee. Which is so adorable it melts your heart.

Halloween is coming (my LEAST favorite holiday) but I'll post some pics and let you see them next week.

Finally some pics of our trip! :)

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Gio and His "POON"
Jacob just couldn't watch the end of "Oswald"

The Pumpkin Patch

Jacob and The Great Pumpkin

Boys and their Pumpkin

Jacob says HI to the goats

Jacob in the Pumpkin Patch 2009

Gio in the Pumpkin Patch 2009

Daddy, Goats and Gio PP 2009

CHEESE in the Pumpkin Patch 2009

On Sat we took the boys to a Pumpkin Patch close to our home. It was fun, but we weren't dressed for the day. It was warm at home but in the "country" about 20 minutes from home it was chilly and made our trip quicker than we would have liked. However, the boys had a good time.

We took a tractor ride, we saw COWs (who say MOOOOOO! you know) and goats, Jacob was very excited and walked right up, said HI and giggled and giggled. Gio stayed in Daddy's arms and was curious, but not enough to not be a teeny bit afraid of the goats. They were too little for the big maze, the huge hay bales and the great big slide, but maybe next year. They did have fun running all over the fields, walking away from the signs I wanted to take their pictures in front of and looking for pumpkins in the patch. We had a good time and next time we'll dress a little warmer and try to stay a little longer.

Cape May (some more pics)

having Dinner CM 2009

Daddy and Gio CM 2009

Mommy and the boys CM 2009

Mommy and Jacob CM 2009

Mommy and Gio CM 2009

I absolutely LOVE my little guys. :)

The Summer Wind Came Blowing In ...and brought Fall.

Wildwood Boardwalk 2009
Gio got on the Big Boy Chair, Marina 2009

Boy , are you funny!!!! CM 2009

"Got your nose" , CM 2009

Daddy and the boys CM 2009

Wow, that was fast. I look at those pictures from July and wonder where Summer went. It flew by and now my kiddos are wearing 18 and 24 month clothes, they have lots of words and idiosyncrasies, they giggle and make us laugh and yell and get so frustrated that sometimes we just have to walk away and calm down.

Other times, I just hold them (for as long as they will sit in my lap) and smell the tops of their heads and wonder how I got so lucky, my survivor guilt kicks in and I succumb to the tears of relief and wonder and gratitude for the two boys that have completed my heart and family. I know that I am not different from other mothers, I am not special or unique just because I planned these babies, prayed harder for them. Mothers will walk through fire for their children, I am no different. Yet, I am. I feel more aware of my boys, I feel that my anger and parenting is stupid and lacks patience much like my infertility did. I feel inadequate most days and profoundly grateful most days too. I am not much different from my Infertile self at all, I am just an infertile parent now. Navigating a terrain that is foreign to me and full of hopeful places and dark places too...yes"es" and NO's!!!!! We all yell "NO" a lot lately.

Infertility never really leaves me, because I am constantly aware of it as I look at my children. Any mother of multiples will tell you that you can't go out anymore without the constant "oohs " and "ahhs", the smiles that start at Gio or Jacob and find me behind Mr Kir pushing the stroller, the ones that say things without words like "good job" , or "dear God how cute" or "wow, how DO you do it?" I always feel uncomfortable with those smiles. I know they are compliments but I always feel like I don't measure up to them. I'm just doing the best I can, being the best mom I can be. If Gio and Jacob are cute, it's not me that made it that way...they just are. If they are good boys, I might take some credit, but Daycare is helping with it and making it possible by instructing and teaching. If they look adorable...well...OK I will take credit for that, the fashionista in me makes sure they match and have groovy clothes :) LOL

other than, time is flying by. We have little toddlers now, instead of babies. We can take them places and they show interest. They can go to the Zoo and say "buh bye" to the camels and pen quins. They can walk (RUN) around the pumpkin patch...they can have a vacation at the beach. They dance and clap, they run and giggle...they are bold, they don't listen. They are my HEART. They hit each other, they hug each other. They whine and whine and whine. They love Noggin and Their Barney doll that "Sings in the Rain" They have a language we don't understand..they say words in baby voices and make me realize how fleeting this time has been. They can say Mama and Daddy and reduce me to a pile of Mush.

They have made me crazy and sane.

They have made me better and worse.

They have changed me forever.

Enjoy the pictures. :)